INCOMPLETE CANVAS

Meandering thoughts

Starts to paint an iris

With palette of moody colors

And a brush of time

Few free strokes

On the blank pages...

The imagination bleeds!

The picture turns hazy….

And drowns in salinity

Bright colors

In search of mirage

Undo,weaves and paint

The thoughts again!

But a part forever remains

Black and white

Beyond the horizon

Hidden….

~~payal~~

I STILL REMEMBER..

I still remember

those cups of tea

you made during my exams

To keep me awake

I still remember

Those boring History lessons

You read to help me

When I was ,half asleep

I still remember

Those difficult times

you dealt with

and Your worries…

I still remember

Mom and You gave me

Everything I deserved

This life,This world

I still remember

Those Hugs, smiles,blessings

You showered on me

when I won those awards

I still remember

Your words,

“never mind,be carefree,stay happy’

Whenever I felt weak….

Now when you are growing old

I wish you remember

That you need to be carefree

And I shall be your strength…….

I wish your blessings be forever with us!

~~payal~~

THE BLACKBIRD

YET AGAIN

Beneath the huge fluorescent lights
Blinding the faith
With the life’s strings in unknown hands
The chaotic uneasiness prevails

Amidst the murmurs’ and the whispers
I hear the pulsating beeps
Listening to my heart I lie
That often missed the beats

Swallowing the bitterness
Offered with the hazy fumes
My eyes close miraculously
As I think of you..

With a sigh of relief
Some faint voices reach my ears
And wake me up
From an unconscious sleep

As I hold you near
Yet Again!!
~~payal~~

MOTHER

With a child
A mother is born
O mother divine!
Ye blessed by the mountains stability
And the depth of the oceans
To love unconditionally
With a calm smile ye greets
nourish and protect
A life in thy womb
Forgetting the pain
The brightness of the sun reflects
In thy fond grimace
Thy love guides through
Teaching the lessons of life..
Keep us in thy care
And bless us forever
With strength in strife..
~~payal~~

DANCING ANGELS

With every passing moment

Heart skipped a beat

While life took a step ahead

Melting in the arms of time

Neither the time turned back

Nor did the life

Preachers preached to move on

While the learners kept on learning…

Swift motions

On the rhythmic beats

Dancing Angels

In a close dance

On the floor of time and life

Lost somewhere

:

:

Between

:

:

The way it is and

The way it could have been

~~payal~~

PAINFUL TINGE

The scarlet fumes of
Mockery, meretricious..
Incessantly mired
The blossom..

Thou vivifying spark
Weeds the
Burgeoned field
Trodden by
The ghastly shadows

Pertinacious..
A flower blossoms…
Omnipresent
Thou deadly passion….
~~payal~~

LET ME BE

Tried to weave some dreams caprine but
thoughtless thoughts occupied my whole
Now under a spell I breathe your breath
your kindness shall only set me free…

Let me be the way I am
traveling the silent miles
the stars cauterize the borough
and the moon incinerates me

Choose to free me out of this cauldron
with steaming what,why and how
Or let me be safe in my closet
sailing in the salinity..and drown….
~~payal~~

A CANDLE

A candle lit the passionate flame
Darkness from the lives it claimed
Spreading its warmth
Burnt with its heat and was deformed..
The molten wax solidified and
Moulded itself haphazardly
In the plasticity of the immeasurable void
Slowly it enveloped the whole
And left me immunized
To the external winds
Leaving the scent of a soul..
~~payal~~

How Long Is Forever???

Why does it happen….
A so-called
Forever bond
Seems to die?

Unable to accept
An unbearable truth?
Or the longing to meet
the deepest desires bait?


Crushed by the destiny
A promise untold,unheard?
Misunderstood?
Or the time wronged?

Hurt and pain
Nothing else left to give?
Or just the way it had to be
For a reason
As they say..!!

Lost in the midway
An unaccomplished dream
At crossroads
Suffocated between the intimate layers
Dies before its born..

An Insomniac
In an asylum of insane thoughts
A hostage of the memories…..
In an endless wait…..
Waits..for an answer

How long is forever??
~~payal~~

A MANNEQUIN

Moulded and framed
As wanted to be
Feelings subsided
The soul died
Nothing remained
But a mannequin…..
Deaf and dumb!
~~payal~~

......OUR CAMARADERIE.......

A battle is on
Between the brain and the heart
One says life is to move on
And the other always plays its part

The words read time and again
Are embedded on my soul
Though cherishing them bring back the memories
But the heart wishes to read on…..

My mind stops me
As its’ good for someone I care for
But the heart opposes
And asks me to let you know…

If I wouldn’t have told you
Would you have ever come to know
That the time spent in paper and ink
How I still cherish it so?

Your letters have made a place
In my heart and soul
If I try to go in a different direction
Void will exist behind the doors

Clinging to the memories
As the life saviour forever
As my heart knows all
And I listen to my heart…..
~~payal~~

TEARS

Thoughts when freeze the mind and
Emotions fill the heart.....
Agony and pain rests in peace when
Rains the crystal clear
Saline nectar
~~payal~~

BURNING DESIRES

Dying.....
burning with desires
soft touch
full of love
holds my hand
and
my very own
last breath
mingled
with the air....
My soul
freed
from the worldly
pleasures
:
yet
:
:
in love
Forever!
Awaiting!!
Life after death!

~~payal~~

RIVULETS OF RUINS

Caught in the web
Irritation persists
The world seems hazy
Starts judging amiss

Increasing the differences
Unaware of the consequences

Enhancing the fake ego
Words are lost
Misunderstanding erupts
Relations exhaust

Silence is a virtue
But at times
It’s a killer too!

~~payal~~

TRANCE

Dripping from the soul
Dew of forgiveness
Puts an end
To the hazy mist
Unveils,
Merges
And let go of
The raging tornado,
Arising from
The vast lands of

FORGETFULNESS
~~payal~~

BLINDFOLDED

In strange quest blindfolded
Stepping towards the goal
The thoughts are moulded
Life takes a toll…

A pale light peeps in
Down the memory lane you see
Traces of the sin
You've committed but thought to be free…

The answer is hidden
Unaware of the facts…cloaked…
Wide eyes glisten
And finally you are soaked!
~payal~

MY WISH

Sprinkle thy mystic dust
And bless my soul
Sparkle my being
Before life forgets its goal

Grant me

….a power of expression
With slight perfection….


….a word of wisdom
With a dew of comfort

….a pinch of goodness
With a drop of love

….a dream to dare
With a vision to achieve

….a ray of hope
With a path to tread on

…a moment of happiness
With everlasting freshness

Let me live by faith
As life is to live on
A piece of peace
is all I want…….

~~payal~~

"SELF DEFENCE" A BARGAIN

Unshackle the mind..
elude the thoughts
drifting to the endless horizon
before its too dark..

Do take away
the mossy memories
and years dissolved in the pain.
The suffocating heart pleads
Leave now..Let it breathe!

Else....
The scathed SELF
embalmed with hatred
slowly and steadily
shall drown into
the
Oblivion!!

~~payal~~

WAVES..(I AM A WOMAN)

WAVES
(I am a woman)


I am a woman
Sane,insane…

lonely heart
chortle laugh

soul of gold
memories old

silky hues
paying up dues

growing somehow
firm now

eyes sparkle
god's miracle

mystic breeze
nightmares cease

A seed sown clear
purpose of life found
failure finds hope
sunshine mark my days!

'coz I am a woman
dancing to the tunes
of heart and soul........
sane or insane!
~~payal~~26.03.08