If Only.....

If only you would have had the courage

to make new mistakes each time
If only you knew that every passing moment
had a lots in store for you
If only you would have not blamed yourself
for the unavoidable circumstances
If only you would have known that peace lies
on the other side of the coin
If only you understand NOW that you can live
a lifetime in a single moment…
You would stop regretting
and holding on to grudges
Let hope breathe within you..
Let the flowers bloom..
Miracles do happen..
I know you believe in them too...!
Dare to dream..!?!

~~payal~~
P.S. In response to my soul sis Deepti's write "regrets"..

FREEDOM

In a closet,on the horizon
Where the dreams turn real
I found my treasure
Filled with blissful moments
And immense pleasure

Last night I danced in the rain
As glances dissolved in the raindrops
My soul freed
From the extra burden
Of the weeds..

The weather had been dry here
But I heard It rained there last night..
~~payal~~

A NEW DAWN

With my eyes, half closed,
I waited for the dawn
A pearl sparkled in the corner
As the first ray of the rising sun
Touched my lashes

It blessed me with a vision of
A dozen rainbows
And glittering butterflies..
And filled my breathless being
With pulsating sighs....!

In a glass dish
Well placed in a room
Lay some dried flowers
Spreading the fragrance
Borrowed from a bottle of perfume.....

Indeed a crazy morning
It had been!
But insanity is my flavour!
It still rules my mind..

~~payal~~

New Year..

New Year….
A time to make
New resolutions
Somehow meant to be broken..
May you be blessed this year
With lots of strength and courage
To revisit and resolve
The broken promises of your dreams..
With a
Fresh feel

New Year…
A time to reach the heights
By spreading the wings
Of hope and soaring high
May you be filled with new hope and
Look forward to a better tomorrow..
With a fervor
To heal

As the new year dawns…
May you be filled with new aspirations
May your dreams come true and
May each new day bring a smile to you
May you explore the new horizons
And attain peace and prosperity
In whatever you do..

May you experience
Retrieval of belief
In life and love
Unfolding
True happiness
That is in store for you..
For not just this year
But
For a lifetime!!
~~payal~~

Silent Words.....

Those were the days
Whenever you remembered me
A green humming bird
Often came to me
And sat on the orange flowers
That grew on a creeper
Near the cactus
In my garden

We talked of the dreams and desires
But lost our rhymes
In the midway
Silently trying to hear the unheard
Amidst the noise of the wind chimes

Somewhere in between
The weeds grew
Near that creeper
Taller and taller
Deeper and deeper
Wilder than the imagination

Sometimes wild is beautiful..

Today,in leisure
Silently watching through my window grill
Used to the game of lost and found
I saw that bird again
And I know....
You remember me still..

We talked about the melodies
And the ceaseless rains
Of the burning desires
And dreams that drained

Silence is suffocating
Let words breathe between the spaces....
~~payal~~

A call

Did you hear the rustling of the autumn leaves
And thought of opening your doors lately?
Did you know that the sound of these leaves
Has made some cracks in the wall?
Did you observe the sunshine that seeps in
Through these cracks has a lots to say?
Or do you still feel safe in your closet
Where you forever stay?
~~payal~~

The tryst

Unconsciously
I closed my eyes
And saw you today
Strolling on the path
Headed by destiny

A gush of wind blew hard
Rain washed away the fears
And a rainbow emerged
That bridged the gap
From my end to yours

The healing rhythm of the waterfalls
Echoed in our souls
Basked in the golden light
The utmost devotion
The ultimate surrender
~~payal~~

Your silent footsteps..

The rain has ceased
And the moon is shining brighter tonight
Some known voice echoes in the air
My heart beats faster
And I know you are here

The chills run down from head to toe
Ripples form in stillness..numb I go
You watch me from a distance
At this moment,I feel your presence
..You are very near,right here..
~~payal~~

In my dreams..

A picture so vivid,with colours infinte

sparkle in my dreams on a no moon night..

It slowly turns hazy

as the first ray of the sun embrace me

and wakes me up to the new dawn..

I breathe in the fragrant air

but surroundings seem veiled..

grey and blue ...sometimes white...

Images from the yore..

touches the heart's core

and slowly fills in my pores..

The magnificent dream floats in my eyes

like rose petals on the river bed

and dissolves silently in my conscience....

A picture perfect awaits to be painted

beyond time..

I shall paint it in my dreams tonight!
~~payal~~

सावन

तपते रेगिस्तान में
जब कोई छेड़ता मेघ मल्हार
बदरी छाती नयनों में
बरसता सावन ज़ार ज़ार
कोपलें फूटतीं
धरती झूम उठती
जब आस बंधाते उड़ते बादल
उड़ेलते अपना प्यार
~~पायल~~

Chaos in the garden...

The palm stood in the shady corner
And witnessed chaos in the garden
Some flowers hid behind the bush
Sunflower was at its full bloom
But Gladiolus seemed to be filled with gloom

The little flocks were lying on the pedestal
Dahlias were in a silent meeting
Marigolds’ were peeping through the cracks in the door
The Lilies swayed with purity and innocence
But the Roses were missed in their essence….

A mystic dewdrop cleared the palm's confusion
And set it free from all the illusions..:)
~~payal~~

YELLOW PAPERS..

2010, sketch

Your reflection in the timeless ink is always a delight
Enchanting is the moments' fervor ecstatical in its might
Let me be a smiling pearl exceptionally in your eye
Let it stay there with utmost care and never let it dry
Oft you sprinkle the silver dust wrapped in golden hues
Words have thy mystic touch when the whole world is blue
.
Prayers offered to the lord with the sound of morning bells
Asking mighty for his grace to bless life in the shells
Petals floating on the water felt in the hearts so far
Embellished dreams in the moonlit nights, guided by the stars
Rivers flow by infinitely within every breath of mine
Sensed as a soul now and again as graces of divine

~~payal~~

Random thoughts..

A calm evening by the sea shore
Soothing music of the waves
Some thoughts of you
Some smiles because of you
Some tears for you
And with your name
My world seems so true..
A few whispers sound like prayers
In sync with the winds
As I cherish thousand of pearls
In your name...
~~payal~~

LIFE

Pondering over

The book called life,as it is

Lies somewhere amidst

The dark dense forest itself

Cure for the venomous stings

~~payal~~

We have to come again in the lap of mother earth....in some other body at some other time....Souls destined to be together remain inseperable no matter whatever happens....Life is simple then why do people make their lives so complicated?!?

LETTING GO..

Love is not to let go
not even to hold on
It is an eternal bliss
The ultimate truth
The only reality
That stays with your soul
Forever..
Even after you are gone..
~~payal~~.
People spend half of their lives in regrets, holding on to grudges , blaming others and trying to forget and let go..later they lead their lives repenting doing so!
I am writing about love after a long time..the love that surrounds us as nature ,that is within us as our inherent nature and that makes our spirits float freely..Its good to stop at times, analyse and then move with much ease without feeling the need to let go...!Yes,when love flows freely within us and surrounds us...transformation happens, seasons change and life becomes rhythmic.. Sometimes we don’t know what we want..It’s the lack of clarity that stops us from believing that true love can never be lost.. Its’ eternal.. Love is God and God is within us.. simple as always!:)

PAST (NaiSaiKu)

Past, a part of life..
Can you run away from it?!
You already know!
PAST! A PART OF LIFE..
You already know
Can you run away from it?!
Past, a part of life..
~~payal~~
Even if the past is filled with painful memories and fear, its just a part of our lives..We sit and rewind it ourselves to see it again ..!If we closely look into it..we’ll see our betterment..No “body” is pain free..!By the way,writing serious stuff in NaiSaiKu form is fun!

TIME (acrostic)

Treading on the path with nature sublime
In eternal bliss or covered with slime
Memories engraved , moments rhyme
Exceptional is the power of time

~~payal~~

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Ever experienced you plan an outing , suddenly you get a call and you have to rush postponing your outing or that you are dying to meet a friend for long but something or the other happens and you can’t meet..Then all of a sudden, one day you receive a call in leisure and both of you decide to meet over a cup of coffee..?!My experiences tell me that if something is destined for us, we at a particular time start working towards it.. Indeed, its just a matter of time..!

SUFFERINGS and CONFUSION..

Just the other day a friend got annoyed with me saying that I am in a habit of suffering..But I personally feel whatever happens in my life..good or bad, takes me a step closer to my-SELF.. God is the goodness of our deeds..HE is within us making us divine..Being God is easy but being human is a tough job…!

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I suffer because I feel

Feelings keep me human

Being human makes me suffer

All this because I feel?

Or its all because humanity lacks

And humans suffer?

~~payal~~

LOVE..

I have always believed that love is the base of all the relations between individuals as well as their relation with Nature and Divine..We can never see love but can always feel its presence within us and in our surroundings.. a love-filled heart creates heaven out of hell! Love helps us to grow patiently with faith,it makes us more loving,more human..Love connects us in this journey called Life where we all are the travelers..

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"From one of my old write"

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From mother earth

till child birth
Love exists..

Love is god
and
God is love..

.
For God
G overns
Our
Destiny..
~~payal~~

Bleeding hearts (Haiku)

 Pink hearts in spring bleeds!

…Die back into dormancy….

In the summer's heat!!
~~payal~~
Nature shows its bleeding heart in form of these beautiful flowers..:)